Sometimes I
feel insecure, unwanted, unloved, and unimportant; then I remember to whom I
belong. I’m reminded who I am! I am a loved, wanted, confident, beautiful
princess because I am a daughter of a King! I have a father in heaven who loves
me unconditionally and through everything! And so are you!!
Romans
8:38-39 states that nothing can separate you from the love of God “not even
death its self” When do you feel far or separated from God? For me I feel most
separated when I give in to self-harm or when I have suicidal thoughts. I would
never want to disappoint God, my Father and when I think and do those things I
know I’m not honoring him with my body or my mind (as in harming myself.)
It took me a long time to come to terms about
how self-harm was a sin. I didn't want to believe it and I had people who cared
for me telling me that “oh God will understand” or “that it’s not a sin” but
then I had other people who loved me so much telling me that “yes it is a sin
but God will forgive you” I had a choice to make. Was I going to rationalize
scripture in my head to make it seem like I was not sinning or was I going to
face the facts and realize that I was hurting Jesus just as much as myself. Well
it was hard and very emotional and hurtful but I had to come to terms with
myself and with God and ask for forgiveness.
Every day is
a struggle and I knew it would be. I have to fully lean on God even when I
don’t feel him there. I can’t let my thoughts and urges get the better of me
and convince myself that small scratches or just one more time will be okay. I
can’t say “He is going to forgive me anyway” that’s just not how these things
work. Of course He is going to forgive you if you ask for it but there are
going to be consequences and don’t you think God is going to know if your
apology is from the heart? Of course He will!
If you truly meant it you wouldn't do those things again. Refer to 1 John 3:6! It could be as simple as
lying or cheating on a test or as big as stealing and murder. It really doesn't matter to God, all sin is viewed the same in His eyes! Imagine you hurting your
Father every time you hurt yourself! That is exactly how I had and have to view
it too stop me from self-harming.
Sometimes
you may feel as if He has abandoned you and He is not with you or working in
your life and you’re just stuck but if you read Philippians 1:6 “He who began a
good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ
Jesus” You will see He is always working
in you.
This shows
no matter what faults you have or struggles you face that God is at work within
you. That you are good work and He will complete what He started!
The Lord
wants me to tell you that you are loved and cherished! You are precious in His
eyes and He loves you so much more than you could ever fathom! Whatever you are
going through you’ll get through! You will conquer like Jesus! Fix your eyes
upon Jesus and you will find that you are looking for; whatever it is. Love,
Hope, Healing, Strength, Understanding; you’ll find it through Jesus! I can’t
express His love for you enough but I hope that for you, you’ll feel His
presence and love! You’ll discover His Glory and find faith and Hope within
Him!
He lets His love flow so Let Love Flow too!
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