Putting Your Self-Worth in Yourself and God

Maybe right now in your life you feel worthless and unwanted; maybe it’s because you just got dumped, one of your parents left, or your friend abandoned you. You would feel much better if you stopped putting your worth in worldly things.

 It’s called “self” worth for a reason.

Self-worth is the sense of your own value and worth. How much you respect yourself; how highly you think of yourself. It’s a synonym for self-esteem.

Truthfully I struggle just as much as the next person to put my self-worth in myself and God. I’m always looking for love in all the wrong places. My mom left me when I was little and my dad never found anyone else; all my life I've been looking for someone to give me the love a mother would… I never found it! Luckily there is a more fulfilling love than any a human could provide. The love of God! It’s quite a magical thing to realize. That there is someone who will love you no matter how you act or what you do.

I think the really special part that helps me most is realizing (I realized this while reading 1 John) that no matter how much you love or value yourself He loves you so much more, and that doesn't affect His love in anyway. To think, He loves you more than you could ever think, more then you value yourself, more than any thought you've ever had about yourself.

This was something incredible to realize for me because I always thought if I didn't love myself or if I had these awful thoughts about myself then He could never love me. But that’s so wrong!! He loves me and you no matter what; I can’t stress that enough.

I have felt unloved and unwanted and it’s the worst feeling, I know. You just have to remember that there is always someone who loves you. An amazing someone!! He is your Father, Friend, and God! I don’t know about you but that’s all the love I need to know and have, because that love never changes and never fails.

So maybe you don’t know God and you haven’t felt His love, but just know it’s never too late. Maybe you self-harm, are suicidal, have an eating disorder, or are depressed and you’re just looking for a reason to go on. Like me maybe you are looking for love and healing. I can give you one place I know of, in the hands of our God. An almighty, all powerful, all loving God! He can heal you; fill the cracks in your heart and flood your eyes with hope! Psalm 147:3 “He heals the broken hearted and binds all wounds” this is such a powerful verse and even more incredible is that it’s true! He really can heal you and fill your life with joy.

I’ll share my experience of the first time I really felt him hold me and give me peace.

Basically there was a fight between me and someone in my family who I had already had a lot of problems with. I was staying there but obviously after we had the argument I had to leave. I gathered my things and walked to the park close to their house; on my way out she said some very hurtful things and was just trying to make me feel as worthless as possible (which worked.) I got to the park and called my dad but I had to wait about 15 minutes for him to get there. I was hysterically crying and pleading with God to take away the thoughts I was having (yes they were suicidal) asking him to take me away or at least take away all the pain. My father finally came and I was angry and yelling because I felt so hopeless and such resentment. He drove me home and at first I wanted to tear through my desk draw and find my emergency blade but instead I was brought to my knees at the foot of my bed.

Sitting there crying and screaming for help. I asked him to wrap his arms around me, put my heart at rest and show himself to me. Then I started asking for the strength to not self-harm that night and more importantly the strength to forgive her for what she had done and said.

Then finally I started praying for her, truly praying that she would be forgiven and find God. That’s when I felt him. He did exactly as I asked and wrapped his arms around me and put my heart at rest! I felt such peace in that moment. In a situation that brought me pain and stress I found peace with God!

And it really is that simple. Ask God, pray for him to show himself to you. Even if you don’t believe in him; say “Hey God I don’t really think you exist, if you do will you please touch my heart and show yourself to me!” that’s all you have to do! With his love you will be complete.

It might take a while, you might have dark moments; I certainly still struggle with this. Leaning on something you can’t see is hard but once you feel him, there is never another doubt that he is real! It’s such a powerful feeling of peace and love! If you put your hope and self-worth in God you won’t be disappointed!  He loves unconditionally and wow is that amazing? Once you figure out that there is someone that loves you, is always there, and even died on the cross for you, you won’t feel unloved or unwanted again and if you do just remember He carried your pain and took those nails for you! All because He loves you so much and wants to spend eternity with you!

Open your heart and Let Love Flow!